Back from Florida!
*** Also, check out my guest post today on Matt’s blog The Athlete’s Plate. ***
As I said, Chris and I left for Boca Raton, FL on Thursday morning. We had our first travel annoyance that morning when I discovered that our first flight was delayed and therefore we would be missing our connection. After waiting for a half hour, I finally got an airline rep on the phone so we could adjust our flight schedule. At first she said we wouldn’t be able to arrive until 10pm that night when we originally should have gotten in at 1pm.
Um….I don’t think so lady (of course I was polite on the phone). Thankfully she was able to schedule us with another airline so that we could get in at 2pm.
Travel annoyance #2 came when our flight from Charlotte to Florida was delayed 45 minutes. That one wasn’t so bad…just annoying since we were only going to be in Boca for 2.5 days anyway and now we were going to arrive even later.
Travel annoyance #3 occurred with the person who had the seat next to me. He looked like a short man on some serious steroids and his arms were so big that I had to lean to the other side of my seat to avoid touching him. Also, he snored SO loud that people 4 rows in front of us were staring back and giving me looks of symapthy. To make it somewhat entertaining, we he finally woke up he started reading and underlining a book called: “Think, and Get Rich”. Haha, I’m sure his roided out, tanned body and bleached blonde mohawk will make people take him seriously with business.
Anyway, our trip was successful! Chris was able to finally find a place to live, we got to see the campus, and explore the area. I was a bad blogger and didn’t take too many pictures, but here are the ones I did manage to capture:
We had a lovely night playing cards by the pool where we got 2 for $5 drinks and played some cards. At first Chris kept winning, but then I kicked his butt ;).
Oh, and I got about 15 mosquito bites…those things seriously love me. I have bites up and down both legs and some of them are dime-size welts.
We got to see Mizner Park which is a very ritzy and pretty shopping/dining center.
Some pics of Florida Atlantic University. I’m so jealous that he’s going to get to see palm trees everyday when he’s going to class.
All in all, the trip was successful, but I can’t wait until I can go back and spend time on the beautiful beaches!
Frustrated with Myself
While in Florida, some of my negative body image thoughts resurfaced. I absolutely hate when this happens. As I’ve stated in my “about me” page, I had a period of disordered eating in late high school. I obviously no longer have those eating (or not eating) habits, but the thoughts that I am not skinny enough have remained. Sometimes they are really quiet and I am able to appreciate my body for what it is and how it looks and I love it! Other times, like this weekend, those thoughts come back full force and I feel guilty every time I eat something that is even slightly unhealthy or that is considered a high calorie food. I also feel guilty if I don’t get in a good workout or some sort of activity.
I realize that I am in fact a small girl and I am consciously aware that these periodic thoughts are ridiculous, yet for some reason they still occur. I even understand that I’m being completely irrational while I’m thinking these things and feeling guilty, but I’m still not able to calm them. It’s like they take over the sensible parts of my brain.
I’m still trying to wrap my brain around why my body image views cycle through good and bad periods. I think part of the reason they surfaced this weekend was due to several things-
- I felt bloated the whole time (this often occurs when I travel by air)
- I ate dessert 3 nights in a row
- I only really exercised for 25 minutes while there.
Looking at those factors, I KNOW with absolute certainty that eating dessert on vacation and taking a break from exercise is not a big deal and will not cause me to gain weight. I also know that as soon as I get back to my normal eating and exercise routine I will feel better and will be happy to indulge in a dessert.
I guess I’m just frustrated with myself because I know that the warped views of my body and unreasonable guilt about eating dessert and not exercising are just that – warped and unreasonable. I’m frustrated because if I know these things, why am I not able to listen to the sane voice in my head telling me them?
I wish I could get rid of those negative and guilty thoughts and be able to truly love (or at least totally accept) my body. Right now, I am only able to do that sometimes. I want to be able to all the time.
Do you guys have any advice?
Sorry for being a debbie downer, but I know that a lot of other bloggers have gone through – or still are going through – similar things and I would love to hear your ideas/thoughts!
Love you all 🙂